Living With An Illness

Years ago, I found myself crawled over in the middle of a restaurant with excruciating stomach pains. After having to be carried to the car by my dad, I went home to sleep off the pain. A few years passed before the pains returned, and when they did, I went to a gastroenterologist to find out what was wrong. Let’s just say that I was given just about every test possible, did blood work, found myself becoming acquainted with various medical machines, and even had to get a colonoscopy and endoscopy, only to find out that I have mild, nonspecific colitis. In layman’s terms, it’s a stomach illness that can cause terrible pains and often times makes the toilet your best friend. However the fact that it is nonspecific makes it difficult to understand the illness, so let’s just say I was a guinea pig to numerous medications, none of which helped.

When it comes to Illness, I’ve noted that from the moment the doctor first diagnoses you with an Illness, you begin to feel somewhat emotional, wondering, “Why me?” From even the most minor Illness to the most severe one, you question how this came about, and ponder why you have to be the one receiving this diagnosis. If you’re lucky, your doctor may tell you about a support group you can join, but often times he or she is too busy to start discussing matters like that.

It can be extremely frustrating when you feel as though you are paying every doctor and specialist to help you, but not one person can figure out how to do so, let alone figure out what the problem is. There are countless numbers of Illnesses without cures or treatments, and unfortunately, except for testing out various medications to find out which one works best, there isn’t much that anyone can do for you if the cause of your Illness is unknown. I know how trying such a situation can be, but believe it or not, there are plenty of other people out there who know exactly what you are going through.

I know that my stomach problem isn’t a life threatening Illness, but just like everyone else, I have two options. I can choose to sit around all day feeling sorry for myself, knowing that my stomach pain will return again sometime soon, or I can remain positive, and go out and enjoy myself. There are so many choices for us to make in our lives and the attitude we decide to have each and every day is one of those choices. Do I want to stay inside all day, drowning in my sorrows, or would I rather go outside and enjoy the beautiful day that I could become a part of?

We have each been blessed with the gift of life, and with that, we should be enjoying ourselves to the fullest. Get up and make the best out of your day, and remember that your Illness does not have control over you or your life. You do. We each have a buffet full of choices in life, but with the main meals being positivity and negativity, you had better choose positivity. And as a helpful hint, not only did I hear that negativity doesn’t taste very good, but I happen to have received an anonymous tip that positivity is the chef’s personal favorite.